mY magic eXisTenCe...........

All the thing in this world is full with hope and anything can happen with Him......

i have a long period no blogging liao....
especially after moving to the new house!!!
cant online....
i really dun have the mood to write anything...
and i not sure to write.....
i am wondering!!!!
am i giving an excuse.....
but i will force mysely to write , learn to improve my writing in english and xpress myself well...


Every time i will told by people to have faith in God!!!!


Am i lack of Faith in God???


i am wondering about it..... Then i will move to a new house that a bit far from the house that i living in!!!


In that new house all my friends is not near that area and i need to depend on my family....


So i take a great faith to learn drive......


i really not drive a car since i get my car licence and i just drive a few times only....


So i am quick scare but i think God is testing me on the faith in God....


then each time before i learn to drive i just pray to God to give me the wisdom and courage....






the 1 st time i decided to drive car is my friend Shee Yan teach me....


then i found that the process on drive was smooth and better then i can imagine.....


but i still not so sure about myself then i call a uncle that teach how to drive teaching me this afternoon, then the uncle say to me ....


That i driving quick well, so it just like spoke to me that i can do it just i believe that holy spirit is with me all the time and i am not alone so with God all the things will come better that we expect....


how Great is the God is....


He really treat me well .........

Thank You Lord.........



So have faith in God is really important to every Cristian!!!!




today i have 2 test...
there are prinsip pemasaran and intitusi Islam(II) then i have read both of it....
i also pray to God that prevent ma from the temptation of peek the answer from my coursemate or books...
i really need the faith to avoid it....
especially for the II all the things is about Islam and the term is i not familiar...

So but at last i not know how to do but i still finish it and i no peek the answer ....
if this test i cant get good mark i will pay more attention in this subject....

Then i know that this a area that i am trying to improve....
i know that because we live at a Islam country so it is a must to know some of the teaching of Islam so that there will be easy to live the Malays frinends ...
and is a preparation for me to waork in a malays conutry....

Although i not so like it but i need to accept it also....

this coming Hari Raya i will move to a new house that a bit far from my previous house..This is my new house...
i still do not have the mood to move to the new house...
All the things i not yet pack...
all the things i need to again!!!

i am asking God??
why i need to move to the new house....
i am wonder that are u testing my faith in serving you???

will i make this as a reason for me to stop go to church o care group???
i am sure i will not ....
i am wonder about the problem for transport to go college ???

then i ask my brother about that i can use his car??
and i long time no drive already....
so he offer me to teach me on Sunday!!!
so it will good to me that i can drive soon....
help me Lord!!!
Have the courage in you....
i know all the things is in your Great Plan...
and i believe in you with all the faith.....


i know that God will bless me in the way of moving to a new house ,
just like God renew my life....
i will have a new start....
a new life!!!
thank you Lord!!!
bring me to a new area and trait me!!!

May i know your purpose in prepare to the new house!!!
i will commit all the burden in your migthy hand .....
hope all the things will go smooth....







Actually what is speaking???

we learn to talk since we are baby....

did our parents teach us how to speak well??

i really dun remember how my parents teach me how to speak out the words....






But now i have a son that is 1 year old....
So i need to teach 1 word and another words day by days......
then i realise that not every word that i teach him he will speak it out but some word i not teaching it he will speak out also...
bcoz he juz copy the adults to speak it out....
then i wonder that i am a good example for my little son???






then i start realise when my son always scream very loud,
then i realise that i always shout
to my son...



So i decided to change the way i speak to my son i know this is very important how present our attitude by speaking....






sometimes i will have desire to speak a lot but sometimes i do not wants to speak a words.....
but when the times i speaks a lot i really cant control my tongue ,i speak what the things i need to speak .
especially when i faced with the things i think is unfair or the things that make unhappy i will repeat and repeat it....



then i speak until i tired....

so it will make me feel a stomach of air when i speak very much!!



to let a person know u more is by speaking but when sometimes the words and the tone u speak it out will bring a different meaning that inside your heart....
then i know that i really need to correct this habits!!!
then i need to control my tongue to speak out the words....
the way that that i need to speak out is:






  1. good words



  2. encourage words



  3. soften voice



  4. the correct words in the right times



  5. gentle speed
colossians4:6
6 Let your speech be alway with grace , seasoned with salt , that ye may know how ye ought to answer every man .


god please help me to speak out in the way u prefer most,

i need to change,

help me know how to do,

help me be more sensitive in holy spirit so that holy spirit can guide me...

god i really need u to change me!!!!

i surrender to u ...

i wants to become more like Jesus day by day...

i start it out with the to speak it out...

i needs ur wisdom to lead me....

thanks you Lord,

pray by the name of Jesus


today is the 2nd day to enter the lukisan kejuruteraan class....

this is the drawing class and need to buy tools like t - square, triangle ruler, compasses, drawing block A2 size ......

then i no buy yet just buy the drawing paper and the text book....



So the lecturer tell us that student that not bring the tools enough is need to go out from class so i just bring the drawing paper only so i scare that the lecturer will not allow me to enter the class or will kick me out of the classroom....

a lot of student is going out from the class because no textbook and i also decided to go out from the classroom and i found that the lecturer is good to us she ask us what tools that we not bring ??

most my friends no compasses only then the lecturer say today class no need use that so i no bring any tools so i borrow a t-square ruler from a Malay gut that no text book.....

Glad that the lecturer is kind to us and i know this is the holy spirit guide me although i no bring the tool i still can enter the class.....so i know that i God is be with me and i no need to worried.....



then during drawing the lecturer also got lead me in the process drawing....

i am sure this subject is easy to score A and i need to make sure i will draw the picture well and score high mark in the test so that i will have a high carry mark!!!!
Then i need to but all things in this night.....
I hope that i will but the right things.... and with the fair price.....
Holy spirit please lead me when i buy the tools , and i can buy all the thing that i need easyly...



New semester...



New Hope...



new objective



new Vision in my life



new life..........


In this new semester I decided to score a 3.5++ result and i hope all the subject at least 4A....
And i hope my lecturer will give a very high mark in my carry mark because it will influence my final exam.....
i got 4 reading subject and 1 drawing and 1 accounting subject....
So i need to spend more time to read and understand it and make sure myself read before lecturer teach me!!!
and sure i will know what that i not understand and get a good answer from lecturer
the key to success is near to me because God is with me...
And i hope this desire will keep it on until the end of this semester and i glad that there will no crash with the PICC in this year and this will be my 1st time to attend it....
And i really wants to learn more in it....
I know that with God i will get all the well and i will pay full attention in class and had a good relationship with the lecturer in college and classmate as well!!

God i really put myself in to your mighty hand and i
hope that you will guide me , mould me , teach me, lead me , tell me how to do the best for you
i wants to give you the best in my life and i will provide all to you and i will give you all my burden in my heart , and know Lord will solve it and take away from me .
Lord i pray to you that you will provide me the best thing and will not forget me aside,
all the words i said to you , you had promise to me will still keep on going.......
i know that God is with me all the time!!!!
please help me when i really need you............
i pray to you about my hubby please talk to him Lord,
i do not have any idea to help him from gamble and the way he use the money....
Lord help him......
i know You will give him a new life so that you did it to me........
i surrender him to you Lord!!!!
i really need your help......................
pray by the name from Jesus






Today morning i start go to school on 9.3o am and my friend Mei Kuan fetch me go....

then 2day situation is different with previous.....

before enter the library we need to go to the student centre 1st bcoz need to take

the mask and make sure no fever...

like very serious oh.... all the people wear mask....






then i need to line up to one table to one table to register...

then the most unusual is when need to pay the fee....

we need to take the number and wait ....

the number i take is 152 then the number appear is 78....

so need to wait so long time.... when is my turn is already 11am...

this is the longest registrations i had....









Then we went to find our mentor to make sure the subject that we need to take this sem
and we take the time table from Pn. Soo Lin...

then had our dinner at Taman Gelora...

then we also go find the lecturer that teach us to sign the register subject paper....

then only back home ....




then i wonder the H1N1 can give us so big the impact....

i thinking about it this the sickness of people....

is this really if we wearing the mask will protect us....

coz we cant see the virus.....

So we really need the protection from God from the virus....

coz God no just protect us from virus but all the evil thing...




I have a dream about swimming with dolplins in the sea or a pool ....



When i am a little kid i like to watch the movie with dolphins and whale,



i like them so much and always feel to swim with them so after i learn how to swim.



I have dreaming about having a dolphin as a best friend , and i feel exited when the movie have dolphins....







then i planing to search some place that have dolphin to play with....



It is at Gulf World Marine Park,which is located in the heart of Panama City Beach along its famous Front Beach Road. it is at Mexico....



It cost so expensive $150, so really need to have time to save the money....


For more information can find the add below:
http://www.gulfworldmarinepark.com/









Another option is at Australia called Monkey Mia , there is having some rare dolphin in the beach , i know this in a travel programme but the dolphin not much sure will they coming to beach anot but it will have a great experience in it....


in the web i search they say we can be the friends with dolphins and will have some guards around all the time, it is a heritage place....


So i do hope that i can go to this place before it is disappear in this world...


But i know this is the things that God create sure it will not disappear so easy!!!








Then i not swimming for a quit long time so miss swimming so much because the swimming pool at Kuantan is in the process for repairing and will reopen on September....



Then in my dreaming last night , i dream about i swim in a swimming pool that so nice...



then i think about it , in my life am i facing some problem and reject to face it and i just wants to swim in in side the pool so i don't hear or care or forget the problem while i am inside the pool .I need some courage to take it , face it and solve it with wisdom with the good spirit!!!














i start my journey to KL on sunday nite....


Then when arrive is night already and i had a supper at a foood court and i order a soup lao shi fen.....





After this my friends sent her friends back to his house and then fetch me back to her house at cheras taman permaisuri near the LRT salat selatan...


her hse is a flat with 3 rooms and 2 toilets. the outside toilets is so small oh!!!!
Her hsemates when home for the holidays so i just stay at her hsemates's room.






For the 1st night i really cant sleep well...


But i do not know why???


i think i still wonder my tour at KL....


A lot of thing come in to my mind...




my friend Ruby tell me that she will rest for a week because of the 1 of the worker in her company got the H1N1 then her company need to close 1 week , so she can accompany me to go shopping....

Yeah!!! really thanks God.....



In the 1st day at KL i decide to go to my cousin house to visit her and let her to give me a new look in my hair style!!!


i color my hair in brown , so this the 1st time i color this color....


before this i always color red color for the chiense new year celebration...


then i when to my aunt hse also near my cousin hse at subang jaya , USJ8.


On the way going to them hse i seem guide by the holy spirit , i easyly find their house , and i can recognise the way start from The Summit...




At that night i follow my sister when to eat sushi at 1 utama , the sushi is delicious and cute!!!


I love the favour....











The japanese mee.....














a green catapilar sushi roll....








After having the dinner , we when to the pasar malam at SS2 , but when we arrive almost all the hawker had close , then we have a dessert at '' 记得吃 ''


i had a peanut dessert and a mango ice....


i feel so full in that day!!!

this night i stay at my sis house, coz the time is late and i not so sure my friend hse is so i stay overnight at my sis hse....





2nd day of my journey i wake up so early and start it with devotion , i pray to Lord so that

all the thing go smoothly...

9am.... my sis 's boy friend fetch me to have a porridge as a breakfast and then he fetch me to my friend 's house....



Then i wait my friends to wake up to fetch me go shopping ..........

this day we went to sungai wang and times square.....


i need to help my brother to buy a skinny trousers, then i find a lot of shop but still dun find yet!!!then i go to 1 shop i found it then i do not suspect then just buy it although it had a label of "miss queen"...






After this i enter another shop then i found that the trousers i already bought is a girl trousers then i just buy the boy trousers ....


Then i went back to that shop and change the trousers that suitable to me....


Glad that the boss let me change and i really know that the boss just wants me to buy and do not tell the truth but is okay for me glad that i found that....


if not , i surely my brother will so upset about me....














Then i went to times square too then i buy a bag....






a cute telephone hanging








and a dancing map......







then i went to my sis hse by LRT..
it just cost about rm2....
then sis fetch to had a dinner and to watch movie " The Land Of Lost "
the chair in the cinema is comfortable!!!
the cinema is near "the curve".





3rd day i went to the 1utama and ikea....
Then i found that 1 utama can learn diving and rock climbing....
in the other way , i found that diving is interesting ........
so have a plan to learn diving!!!
then we went to ikea at noon then we have buy a nice dustbin




a shoes putter






and a hanging....






then we go to the pasar malam at 康乐城....
It is 1 of the biggest pasar malam at Kuala Lumpur...
there is a lot of people oh!!!!
oh dear!!!
my friends say is quick less people coz the H1N1......
if compare with ordinary!!
many school close down about it....
even my school also....
so i will start school late 2 days..






the last day at KL.......
i went to sunway piramid!!!
i help my brother to buy shirts for his dinner and i buy a shirt for my hubby also....







then something special is happening........
my relationship with my hubby is a bit better then before...
we went to a movie on that Sunday too.......
I really appreciate to God that bless me so much things in this tour....
Thank you Lord!!!
u really care 4 me so so much.....



































today my friend RuB back to Kuantan celebrate her birthday with her family, she also invite me to see a movie. After this we go to the Just Relax for YC....






Then the drink i order is traffic light juice it is so colourful it made by jelly and some soda.

The different color of the drink made me think of the meaning of the color in our life...


Red-passion and hot

we will feel hot with the things we like and interesting so much..

when we are in a young age will wants to do something new and different with other!!!

so it will have a sweet memory in our life


Yellow-happy and bright

when see yellow feel like banana, in our life is happy and nothing to be worry.
our life is different when we know Jesus.........
we is always the brighter people among others and sure people will like us and feel popular!!!
Green -natural
in the traffic light we feel like can go ....So in our life, we can go to anywhere if the things are right
and not harm others.
when we feel down just go to some natural place and the things besides sure can get somethings different...








I am planing to go to kl to find some friends in this Sunday by my friend's car...

1st i thought i wants to go there by bus then i know that one of

my friends is back on this week and will back to kl this Sunday ,

so she offer me to follow her car...




so i just accept it coz it save my cost...




ha ha ^^








if u are asking y i wants to choose kl to go???





i will answer u that i have friends and cousin that a very long period no see them and very miss them so much...


my planning to go kl is .........

1st day,when i arrive is the night ardy i will choose stay at my friends house and when wake up is the 2nd day ardy!!!

2nd day, i will follow my friends to work and go to some shopping mall and find a trousers for my brother that he told me to buy....
And i will find somethings interesting to do lar..... he he....
in the noon n night will find some friends to lunch and dinner!!!


3rd day, i will go find my cousin to visit and see her little baby and try the mask that she say very nice...
but she say is so nice then i wants to try 1st only can tell my friends the result....
then i will cut and color my hair ....
hopefully will back Ktn in a fresh and new look!!!
then i will back Ktn in the night by bus but i not buy the bus ticket yet!!!
so i decide buy the ticket when i arrive at kl....
And i really hope that i will enjoy myself every moment in kl with the holy spirit that will always be with me and i listen to her!!!



So at now i really pray to you Lord,




please bless me in the journey i went to kl.
hope that God will bless me in a good relationship with my friends and relative.
please bless me have a good weather in thetime i at kl ,
there will be no rain or too hot,
hope that it will cloudy and some wind.
Then the friends that i wish to visit are free to fellowship with me,
hope that the things we say will inspire me and know their life studying and working in kl,
is there any different with or without family????
i am wondering it???
Lord please give me a good answer about all my question in my life.
let me close to u ,desire ur words n teaching......

pray by the name in Jesus,
Amen










This my 1st time to make trifle and i make with my Shepherd ....
yesterday in the morning my mum already went out so i decided
to walk to my Shepherd house.
Then we walk to buy the ingredients
for make the trifle, i am so exited to make it out,
i wants to learn to make it....


The things that we buy are the puding flour ,cakes , fruits and creams...
then after we buy it we take it home and cook the puding (mongo & honey drew)
and after cook put them in the fridge...
after this i help to cut the cake in to pieces and we demo how to put the puding so can make it more nice....
then we put it in to a cup but not so nice then maybe put in the cocktail cup will more nice....
then i just let it to my shepherd say is ok.... she will do the rest!!!!



Actually i like to make things to eat, it is a good feel when we eat the things that we make....
Before this i had make cheese cake with my friends, mooncakes , biscuits with my brother!!!
I even learn to make sushi from a friends although it is not so nice but the taste is quick good...
If i have more times i must to make more of the food....











Actually what mean holiday???





i wonder about it...









  1. rest






  2. refresh






  3. a celebrating






  4. sleep






  5. watch tv






  6. eat






  7. not thinking






  8. release stress






  9. ........







i now is on school holidays and will start school on Ogos...


In this holidays i am stay at home watching movie



and read books and search internet.








Other then that is go go at the shopping centre..

then is improve my Gitar skill but being disturb
so not succesful but i think i got abit improve de,
coz i really wan it to be more good as a skill
i really feel so bored...









Then i have an idea to go to other state to visit my friends and relative at KL...






But still on the planning.... Coz wan plan where i will sleep and go


find who 1st and make sure they are free and so that i can sure


that where will i go.








I really dun know the road at KL and find something new to me...

furthermore i wants to built relationship with my friends and relative...




Then i can go for other place other then my home....

I just wants to change a situation for awhile only....

i juz hope that mayb something will be refresh in this holidays



This is my 1st time blogging..........
Actually i am being encourage my friend (my sherepherd )but i still cant commit her.
My pc is spoil then cant online and let me have a excuse do not blog.But unfortunately i having a english course(IEC) then one of the subject in this course is blogging........


In this subject i learned about the purpose to blog and important to blog.
Furthermore it can improve my English and let me write down my feeling....
And 2day i am having a Blog class at college so i need to start up my blogging journey~~~~
My lecturer wanted me to write down a blog is about GHOST!!!!!










OH!!! actually what is Ghost?? I never see a ghost by my own eye before, but i think it just a feeling to me and i feel them when i am alone in a room or house...But i think it just influence by the ghost movie that i had seen...HAHAHA....(^_^).I watch ghost movie since i am a little child and it was very fright and i cant sleep on that day....I had see a lot of ghost story on story book,newspaper,movie,tell by friends,magazine,radio and other....

Or perhaps u can tell me more after see my blog....


I am thinking about that all races in this world have different cloth,culture,food,history
,language and appearance.But all of them will have ghost story among them and the ghost will appear with their races....And all the ghost is scary , will appear after people die , and when u harm that person then he become ghost will back to find u....


So i think Ghost will just harm the black hearted person and Ghost is in our heart when we done something guilty.So if we do not do something wrong to others and not need to scare about Ghost...




All the old parents will tell us the story about ghost in our surrounding like when someone suicide or being murder. The house area will appear Ghost and it will make no one dare to live inside that house.Most the story i heard is at college, school, toilet,hotel ,hostel, cinema , under tree, and the place exist accident always....
Even the teachers will tell us the story about Ghost....




My primary school is a Chinese school and not much Malays and i so not heard about Malay Ghost .When i study secondary school i have a lot of Malays friends then i known that Malays oso have ghost...and we always argue about which Ghost is more scary!!!!!!
For i am sure that Ghost is exist and is written in the bible and the ghost is evil and make the people sick and is apart of Satan....
So i believe in God is powerful then the ghost so i not need to scare about ghost anymore after i believe in Christ...

Got one day when i am asleep in my room alone and no one accompany me , about 4-5am i feel that had a black shadow behind my bed, and i feel that that black shadow wanted to go inside my body and i just pray and pray for the help from Christ and i feel very scared and my heartbeat was very fast and i cant even breath well.I not dare to open my eye to see it,then i only not so scare when i heard the sound of my mum went to the toilet. then i just back to sleep but not so well ... then i quickly tell my mum when i am awake and my mum tell me it is juz a nightmare
coz that evening i heard my dad tell about my pass away grandma come back find my brother and him to get married quickly then bring him to a nice place oso,and he awake whole of his body is cold......after i heard this so is not rare for me to have this kind of nightmare...... So it juz a illusion and i not see a really ghost!!!!!




When i was a little girl i have seen a ghost movie about a poor little boy and got a ghost help him in his school life even the things he wants ,the ghost surely will provide to him .
so after i watch this story i think ghost is not scary but is a helping and like a angel in our life. Then at that moment i really to have a Ghost beside me........



















About this blog

my life ,my opinion,hope u all will like it

Followers